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drifting

  • Dec. 25th, 2006 at 12:46 PM
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I've decided I have no life............contrary to what Mickey thinks........I have no life.  I feel like I'm just kinda drifting at the moment.....I'm trying to keep myself busy, but it's just surface wise.........sometimes I'll get so wrapped up in something that I forget everything & just focus on whatever I'm doing.  I'm trying to find that inner peace......the place where I can be happy w/ myself.  That's not easy for me........I've said it before I'm the kinda person that makes everyone else happy & then I feed off of their happiness.  There are certain times & places that I'm completely content with myself but I'll write about those some other time.  
I have friends here but Tiff is hard to pin down, Jess is gone at the moment (She went to Bethel for 3 weeks) & it's not like I can go do something just w/ Kendal...........Ash, Melinda, Mickey, Linds-they all live at least an hour away.......which explains why I'm always on the phone.......I can't see 'my girls' so I'm always talkin' to them.  Take Friday night for example.....Mike went to Wichita w/ a group of people, Hanna was at Meggie's & both Mom & Dad didn't get home 'til close to 7:30.  I was the only kid home..........it just seems like that at a time when I really want to be around my girls, I'm the one sitting at home.  Next weekend is gonna drive me nuts, I really want to go do something b/c of New Year's.....I don't have the money, & I just know it ain't gonna happen.
I'll do my letter that Mickey gave me sometime in the near future........I'm still working on it..........
*ErinCamille*
 

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(Anonymous) wrote:
Dec. 26th, 2006 06:57 am (UTC)
yeah i know how you feel. also why betterman? its a good song but why betterman? try gone or comeback by pearl jam. good songs
Love ya
Josh
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