Life sucks sometimes.............today's one of those days.  Why can't I just have a little magic wand that I can wave & make everything better?  Especially when it comes to my family..........you guys know we've been worried about Grams health for a long time & we hoped & prayed that the surgery last Dec. would work & it did.  Sept. rolled around however, we went to Unassigned Territory & Grams had the worst spell since her surgery.....it caused them to go home Mon. morning instead of Mon. afternoon w/ all of us b/c Grams couldn't set for that long in the truck.  Since then she's progressively gotten worse..........she has no feeling in her legs at all.....she can't drive & it's to the point where you can see her sway if she stands for too long.  
In the past probably 6 weeks she's been to the doctor 5 or 6 times......she's had 2 MRI's, a nerve conductivity test, been to the neurologist, the neurosurgeon (twice) & to see 2 other Dr's up in Salina.  Today we finally found out what it all means......there's nothing the Dr. can do.  The numbness is just the stinosis coming back with a vengence......she's probably gonna have the spinal fusion just to relieve the pain.....but the numbness will always be there & it's probably gonna get worse.  You know what I hate the most........the fact that Grams is going to get depressed--badly depressed......she already feels like a burden & no matter what we tell her she's going to believe that.  I don't care that mom's gone 3 days a week helping Grams.....I wouldn't have it any other way.....I want to be able to help Gramps & Grams, even tho I feel like I don't help that much.  
Anyways.........this is just me ranting.......love you guys!
*ErinCamille*