- Mood:
exhausted
- Mood:
bouncy
Ok...........here's my first attempt at a song fic........thanks to
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candycentricand all her encouragement.........anyone who knows me, knows I'm a die-hard Rascal Flatts fan....so I used one of their songs for my first fic.so I present to you...........*waves & then runs off to hide under the bed until further notice that it's safe to come out*
- Mood:
tired
In your journal, list 10 of your favorite (or random) songs that begin with that letter. My darling girl
candycentricgave me the letter "T" So.....w/out further ado......1. 'Take Me There'-Rascal Flatts
2. 'Truly Madly Deeply'-Savage Garden
3. 'Tell Me Something Good'-Rufus & Chaka Khan
4. 'Takin' You Home'-Don Henley
5. 'Tangled Up'-Billy Currington
6. 'This Never Happened Before'-Paul McCartney
7. 'That's the Beat of a Heart'-Sara Evans & the Warren Brothers
8. 'That's What Friends Are For'-Dionne Warwick
9. 'To Make You Feel My Love'-Josh Kelley/Garth Brooks
10. 'This Wasn't Suppose to Happen'-Army of Anyone
- Location:home
- Mood:
mellow
I. GIVE. UP.
Some times I really just hate people............especially my bosses--they're so wishy-washy....I can't stand people like that, it drives me nuts. I have enough stress in my life..................
The last month & a half has probably been one of the toughest of my life.............emotionally, mentally, physically. Yeah, I know it won't ever be easy for me.....I don't really expect that.......but please, please, please let it be better than the past 6 weeks. For probably the first time in a very, very, very long time.........there's light at the end of the tunnel....who knows........
*For a certain person that reads this--I'll be fine.......I'm 'Supergirl'-remember.......& yeah, I miss you*
*ErinCamille*
- Mood: tired
I hate my life, I hate having no money, I hate not having a car, I hate that most of my friends live far away, I hate not being able to just pick up & go do something with them, I hate that 2 of the people I've always admired & looked up to now treat me like I'm invisible, I hate watching my Gramma get worse everyday, I hate that my mom is working 2 jobs & taking car of Grams..................
I was 'spose to go see Ash........'til cars broke down, then Mickey called me & wanted to come down & hang out w/ them last night........had to turn that down...........so I spent last night either crying or lying depressed on the couch-yeah not much fun
Out of 5 weekends I'm only gonna be @ Sun for 1 of them & that was last weekend.........next weekend's the wedding, then I make a flying trip to Freddy for Tyler & Tiffany's wedding on Sat. & take Gramps to Beloit on Sun. the weekend after that, the end of Aug is our CO's visit & the weekend after that is Unassigned Territory (YAY!).............can I have a gun? pretty please? pretty pretty please? with sugar on top?
*ErinCamille*
- Location:home
- Mood: exhausted
- Music:Wicked the Musical-I'm Not that Girl
candycentricList seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.
So w/out any further ado............
*Take Me There-Rascal Flatts
*I'm Not that Girl-Wicked the Musical
*Stand-Rascal Flatts
*Interstate Love Song-Stone Temple Pilots
*Lost in this Moment-Big & Rich
*Nothing Man-Pearl Jam
*Signal Fire-Snow Patrol
So...................now I'm tagging
jess5302 kissingdaylight theartofmegann so_bambiesque borncountry26 crossmymind detectivetaylor- Location:home
- Mood:
depressed - Music:smallville
I've always liked to write.........my friends have always encouraged me to just do it. Some of my best writing hits me late at night........this was no exception, I think I was up 'til midnight or a little afterwards. So, here's my first attempt at a song......I have no idea as to writing the music, well I do, kinda mid-tempo, I'm thinking a Michael Buble sounding song.
So here's the lyrics............*hides under desk from flying tomatoes*
*ErinCamille*
- Location:home
- Mood:
nervous - Music:wicked the musical soundtrack
L-O-V-E Flatts new song............It's awesome, it's perfect........the lyrics are 'flatt' out beyond perfect (couldn't help it-lol)
I WANNA GO SEE FLATTS!!!!!!!!! PLEASE COME BACK TO KANSAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Click the cute little cut to get the lyrics
I've also gotten addicted to the songs from 'Wicked the Musical'.........I'd love to go see them....well, I found out last nite that they're coming to Kansas City next May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going..........I don't care if I have to hitchhike!!!!!!!!!! The only downside is that Kristin Chenowith isn't gonna be there....oh well.
I know.........I'm a music-nerd........but it's fun people
- Mood:
blah
Rules:
Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
- Location:home
- Mood:
stressed - Music:AFI
I have friends here but Tiff is hard to pin down, Jess is gone at the moment (She went to Bethel for 3 weeks) & it's not like I can go do something just w/ Kendal...........Ash, Melinda, Mickey, Linds-they all live at least an hour away.......which explains why I'm always on the phone.......I can't see 'my girls' so I'm always talkin' to them. Take Friday night for example.....Mike went to Wichita w/ a group of people, Hanna was at Meggie's & both Mom & Dad didn't get home 'til close to 7:30. I was the only kid home..........it just seems like that at a time when I really want to be around my girls, I'm the one sitting at home. Next weekend is gonna drive me nuts, I really want to go do something b/c of New Year's.....I don't have the money, & I just know it ain't gonna happen.
I'll do my letter that Mickey gave me sometime in the near future........I'm still working on it..........
*ErinCamille*
- Location:home
- Mood:
envious - Music:better man--pearl jam
Grams has to have surgery on Jan. 9th, they'll be doing a spinal fusion on L4 & L5 in her lower back. 2 of the 3 Dr's say this will help w/ the pain but not w/ the paralysis......honestly, I don't care if she can't walk, I just don't want to see her in the kind of pain she's been in for the past 2 months. So, it's crazy--mom's over at Grams all the time taking care of stuff & we're all just generally gearing up for what we know is coming. It's the 'dark before the dawn' so to speak.
Last time I wrote Josh & I were good..........about 4 days after I wrote that all heck broke loose. Since then it's been one giant roller-coaster of emotions for us..........we 'broke up', we started talking a week later & went back to the same routine of talking 3, 4 or even 5 times a day. A week ago today I saw him at the assembly & all it took was one time of catching his eye for all my composure to get thrown out the window. I don't know what I would've done w/out Ashley, Melinda, Mickey & Linds that day.....honestly, the 4 of them kept me sane that day & thru this whole thing. I barely talked to Josh all last week, Friday nite I ended up bawling myself to sleep at about 8:30 that night. Sat. nite I was talking to Ash & Josh kept calling, finally he left me a voicemail that asked to call him & said that it was important he talked to me. After debating I called him back, I knew what was coming before he even said anything..........he basically did the greatest thing he could for me, he told me that he wasn't going to make me choose between him & my family......he gave me up for right now. I can only imagine what that took, but I love him even more for it. I do still love him, he's one of my best friends & I honestly think we will be together, but like he said on Sat. nite, for us to be together in the future, he has to let me fix things that I've broken lately. The hardest thing is not being able to call him & tell him about all the little stupid things that happened that day..........I miss those convo's & falling asleep while we're still on the phone, feeling safe & warm & knowing that he loves me.
There's my novel for the moment..............love all you guys.......
*ErinCamille*
- Location:work
- Mood:
numb - Music:95.5--a little of everything
Life sucks sometimes.............today's one of those days. Why can't I just have a little magic wand that I can wave & make everything better? Especially when it comes to my family..........you guys know we've been worried about Grams health for a long time & we hoped & prayed that the surgery last Dec. would work & it did. Sept. rolled around however, we went to Unassigned Territory & Grams had the worst spell since her surgery.....it caused them to go home Mon. morning instead of Mon. afternoon w/ all of us b/c Grams couldn't set for that long in the truck. Since then she's progressively gotten worse..........she has no feeling in her legs at all.....she can't drive & it's to the point where you can see her sway if she stands for too long.
In the past probably 6 weeks she's been to the doctor 5 or 6 times......she's had 2 MRI's, a nerve conductivity test, been to the neurologist, the neurosurgeon (twice) & to see 2 other Dr's up in Salina. Today we finally found out what it all means......there's nothing the Dr. can do. The numbness is just the stinosis coming back with a vengence......she's probably gonna have the spinal fusion just to relieve the pain.....but the numbness will always be there & it's probably gonna get worse. You know what I hate the most........the fact that Grams is going to get depressed--badly depressed......she already feels like a burden & no matter what we tell her she's going to believe that. I don't care that mom's gone 3 days a week helping Grams.....I wouldn't have it any other way.....I want to be able to help Gramps & Grams, even tho I feel like I don't help that much.
Anyways.........this is just me ranting.......love you guys!
*ErinCamille*
- Mood:
melancholy - Music:lullabye-shawn mullins
So I found this cute little thing as I was surfing LJ.........& being the music obsessed girl I am I thought "oooOOOOooo cool!!!"
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
Here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
- Location:home
- Mood: blah
- Music:soundtrack to my life
If anyone wants the songs.......leave me a comment & I'll send the file to you
- Location:work/home
- Mood:
loved
So........I'm just bumming at work right now because there isn't a blasted thing to do. I've been in one of those funks since probably late last week, I'm getting burnt out & kinda depressed. It's partially due to all the changes that's happening right now......I don't like change, I don't deal well w/ change
I think I need to go to Unassigned Territory....but in all honesty I don't think it's gonna help with my job dilemma.
Don't get me wrong here.....I love what I do.....the numbers make sense to me......I like looking at the final result & seeing order & a method to the numbers. But as you all know........I am a high stress person & even while I was in school I would wonder "Should I even be going into a high stress job w/ the way I am?"........this job was what I wanted at a time when I really could use it. Now I'm wondering tho if it's not too much for me......should I just try to find something more along the lines of just straight bookkeeping or maybe go back to banking? The thing with Unassigned Territory & I don't think I'll be a happy camper when I get back is because I'll go from spending 4 days w/ my friends--doing nothing but field service & meetings, to back working full time......I can tell ya'll right now I'm NOT gonna like that.
Then......last nite I got some really sucky news..........it was our 2nd to last bookstudy @ Batchellor's & we had snacks afterwards.......we were kinda subdued but we made it through without crying. Well, at least until we all got in the car & dad told us that he's pretty sure this will be the last year that Rick & Ven go to Unassigned Territory with us......in 3 seconds flat the car gets dead quiet & we all go 'WHAT?!?WHY?' I guess Uncle Rick got a job down in El Dorado........it hasn't been said but we're all betting that they'll end up moving down there. Jess is moving to Mac w/ Patti & Tiff's living in Lindsborg now (for the time being--she'll move next Spring)......but Uncle Rick & Aunt Ven--that was a shocker......it threw us for a total loop...the entire mood in the car changed.....we all got dead silent & if you know my family the only time we're quiet is if someone's upset or mad. I kept telling myself 'You're not gonna cry, you're not gonna cry' & I did ok 'til I was changing & Hanna looks at me, crying, & asks if we'll still go to Unassigned Territory.....that was it.......I lost it. We're setting upstairs bawling & I finally get her to bed, my darling boy has been waiting on the phone for me for close to 10 mins. I had calmed myself down enough to make a coherent sentence..........but as soon as I heard his voice I lost it again, he keeps asking me what's wrong & I know he's thinking someone is dying or something.....so I get out that everyone is ok. Mom hollers at me & I go downstairs (Josh is still on the phone--my boy has soooo much patience w/ me) & mom tells me to give her a hug......I do & start crying again. I get back on the phone.....finally & I'm just sobbing......I finally compose myself enough to tell Josh what was up. All he has to say is 'I'm sorry baby' to lose it again.....poor baby I'm sobbing on the phone.
I honestly can't remember what life was like without the Batchellor's in it......i know it sucked. Since we've moved 'home' I've made the best friends I've ever had--Ash, Batchellor's, my crazy cousin duo, my boy, Jake & Barb, Kendal, Megan & her family......I honestly don't know what I'd do without you guys. It hurts now that I've been on the side of people leaving......not me leaving people.....you know what........IT SUCKS--I hate it.
I'll stop............I love you guys.......
*ErinCamille*
- Location:work
- Mood: melancholy
- Music:Life is a Highway-Rascal Flatts
Michelle..........thought you'd like this!!!!
Pick 6 fandoms & then answer the questions below………………NO PEEKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Mood:
lethargic - Music:Life is a Highway--Rascal Flatts
The weekend after that is gonna be the wedding.......madness & more madness. Then 3 weeks after that is Mike's Grad Party.
This past weekend was a flying trip to Chanute to see Josh's family & meet the congregation. I didn't know 'til like Tues. nite I was going & then it was a mad dash of getting me down there so they could pick me up & it seemed like a hectic weekend but it really wasn't. I ended up staying with the Brody's.......I'd never met them before..........Mike & Hayley were really really cool. Fri. nite we just hung out @ Rod & Shari's w/ everyone, went driving around w/ Jared & then later on w/ Nicole & Evan. We went over to Brody's & hung out there........Sat. we didn't end up going to the funeral...........I went over to Nicole & Evan's & we hung out w/ them basically all day. Nicole & Evan are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We went to see Talladega Nights that afternoon & the whole family went out to dinner on Sat. nite @ Fireside, this really good steak house. You can write something on a dollar bill & they'll hang it up....so Shari wrote Josh & Erin '06 on one & they were gonna hang it up........I started laughing & Josh just sat there shaking his head. Sat. nite was probably one of the biggest breakthrough conversations ever for us........we'd been needing to have that conversation face to face for the past 2 months. We've got a game plan now..............my boy is gonna move up here next May or June & we'll see what happens from there ;o) On Sat. nite & Sun. afternoon we had 4 people ask us when the big day was..........Nicole, Jared (he was goofing around), Hayley & my mom............Nicole & I were discussing why NOT to get married during tax season, Hayley asked us like as soon as we walked in the door on Sat. nite & my mother cracks me up...........we're standing in Dave's ordering food & I'm telling mom about the weekend & she looks @ me & goes 'So when's the big day?'...........Mother?!?!?! Then she proceeds to tell me that she realized that both Josh & I's birthstones are blue (mine's aquamarine & his is sapphire) & she said she saw a ring that she thought I'd like for an engagement ring!?! I give up.........I officially give up..........it totally cracks me up.
Last nite...........my poor mother is about 2 seconds away from a total meltdown.............we're looking @ schedules for the next couple of months--it's gonna be crazy..........& Josh & I kinda have things figured out when we're gonna see each other--long weekends are our friends. Mom just looks @ me & goes 'I'm never gonna have the money for you guys to get married'. I just tell her it's all gonna work out & we'll be fine, not to worry about it quite yet. I just have to laugh..........my mother...........I love her to death...........she's great............
Anywho.........that's 'bout it peoples.............love you guys
*ErinCamille*
- Location:work
- Mood: happy
- Music:Amarillo Sky--Jason Aldean
Unfortunately, dad had to leave before meeting was over because we were having car issues, so my father is gonna get mobbed this weekend.......but Hanna & I went out & met mom at the lab. So, it's 10:15.....me, mom & Mushu are in the Hospira parking lot spazzing out.....I pull out my phone & start calling people............Ash, Josh & Megan were the 1st 3 on our list. All of them were basically speechless & then totally ecstatic..........I tried calling Michelle & Linds, but nooooo they didn't answer their phones :o) (of course I'm pretty sure I know what Mickey was doing.....or watching I should say)
So............it was a pretty amazing night.
Michelle, my darling computer goddess, can you make me a cool background for my lj? I like navy blue, silver, lime green, purple & then if you wanna change the colors to the other stuff that would be awesome!!!!! I loooooooooove you!!! :0)
Love ya'll
*ErinCamille*
- Mood:
crazy
Anyways........the thing is....my grampa is one of those people who's gonna tell you straight up what he thinks....but he often contradicts himself but you can't tell him that & when he's stressed--watch it, just nod your head & say 'yes'.....
In the past 2 1/2 weeks he's made my mom, my gramma, hanna & today, me, cry......he's just been pissy. This entire past weekend he made fun of me for callin momma so much....sorry I can't help it, I'm a homebaby & I admit it.
Today at lunch I was helping Grams & he comes flyin in the house & starts screaming at me for telling the Batchellor's something............but here's the kicker people---I HAVEN'T SEEN THE BATCHELLOR'S IN LIKE 2 WEEKS!!!!!!!!! See my dilemma here?!?! Anyways, I don't let him see me crying......mom is out delivering milk today, she went over to Grams & Gramps & Grams told her what happened. So mom calls me & I start bawlin' here at work.....i'm tired, i put up w/ gramps all weekend (which is exhausting), & i lose it. 'Bout 20 mins later, my boy is calling me, my mother called him & told him what happened, so he called & left me a voicemail & wanted to check on me. That just about made me start crying.......... & the fact that mom called to give him a heads up.
Ok, I'll stop whining......
Love ya'll
*ErinCamille*
- Location:work
- Mood:
drained - Music:interstate love song-stone temple pilots
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